Fall
They say that “you know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams” but is it always that way? The word “love” is often idealistic and because of this, it hurts most of the time. Maybe the reason why you “can’t fall asleep” is because of the pain it brings in your chest. It feels like life is being slowly squeezed out of you. You may want to scream but all you can do is open your mouth wide but hold back your voice so no one will hear. It hurts so much that you may not bear it anymore.
Reality is often cruel for those who love too much. I can say this because I’m one of them. I may have many crushes but only a few persons really made me fall in love. I love them with all my heart but sometimes I can’t be sure if this is still correct. Some says that since I love too much I tend to forget to love myself and honestly I think they are right. I don’t know why but that’s what I really am, a fool trying to get few attentions of goddess and maidens by risking all I can. One “girl” friend of mine told me that she thinks that I am “too nice” that’s why I haven’t got a girlfriend. Another told me that I have that “true-friend potential” but never had that “lover’s potential”. I’m not so sure of what they mean nor what HIS plan for me is but I just hope I can still hold on to that thin line of sanity I’m holding to. I just hope that if that “right girl” for me comes, she still have a heart to love because I’m starting to feel that this is really my destiny, to be alone, and maybe it is really my fate… “To catch those who fall out of love but destined to fall on my own”…
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